the unrepentant..

Dad,

I never realized I was that far from You..
I didnt know the distance..
My mind wanders..
I cannot escape..
I tried to be that person You wanted me to be..
I am trying hard..
My struggles are pulling me apart..
My burdens are getting heavier..
Where are You at times like these?
I know You are near..
But I cannot feel You..
Are You there?
How much have I missed?
It was nothing trivial when I first met You..
I know You are looking down from up above..
I believe in You..
My life is an open book..
And You are my Eternal Author..
Help me, Dad..

I need grace.. I need love..